devastated
Sufferingcorrection...chris broke up with me since he no longer loves me.
he says it was like a switch just turned off; no real explanation or anything.
he didn't come down to jamaica to visit in the summer, no point since we're not together; and his dad moves away in december...this basically means i may never see him ever again.
i cry all the time, everyday...the only thing that keeps me going is my motto 'faith.hope.love.' i have faith and hope that we'll see each other some time in the future and fall in love again...it's what helps me get by, i'm optimistic, blind optimism perhaps but i love him and that's that.
i hurt, this sucks, i don't understand it, his reason i don't understand it at all...
he wants space and doesn't want me to call him at all, he says he'll call me and that it may even take months...for all my watchers and people who know me you know that i'm head over heels [read previous journal entries]
idk what to do...everything hurts.
please cheer me up, i don't care by what means.
i love you all and hopefully i'll be better soon.
tiny bit of good news, i entered a competition and one of my pieces 'Waiting...' [it's in my gallery if you don't know] got through to the next round, maybe i'll win a prize, lord knows i could use the money.
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Expose This
Designners Junior
Club-Ja
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and then my other friend tyra decided that i was going to move in with her if things with her now-almost-husband in like, a month, and my then boyfriend didn't work out and we were going to become cat ladies and name them all after the characters in the anime Gravitation and all the Organization XIII members from Kingdom Hearts 2. which is insane, but it made us laugh and feel better about our guys.
those are sexy names. i'm still going back and forth. i like riley bree and darcey lizbeth and oodles of other names. i can never manage to pick one and stay decided.
lol. i so want to go and visit london but yeah. i also have finally decided that i'm going to ireland. whether i'm staying or not, is not the point. actually i really want to live in either blowing rock, north carolina or charleston, south carolina or i'm hopping the pond and going to Dun Lougahaire (sp?) in Ireland. i suppose that only time will tell.
lol! i have tooo many books. and not enough space for them. AH!!!!!!!!! i got my new book, Rehv's? I got it signed!!!!! by the author!!!! that was like, pretty much meeting God. i couldn't breathe. I was like "OMGILOVEYOUSOMUCHTHANKYOUSOMUCHFORWRITINGTHESEBOOKSKEEPWRITING!!!" and she was so cool too. she was like "Thank you, but I would recommend breathing between words." she's so cool. and the book was so good. i actually cried. it's now one of three books that made me cry. i start talking about the book and i get all excited. my friend's jealous because i bought it for her but i haven't been able to get it to her yet, but i forgot to get that one signed. so yeah. she's kinda upset with me. but oh well. she'll survive. lol!
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what if i breathed
and you fell apart
at the seams?
who would do the
healing
then?
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'tis okey darling.
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"The strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the strongest kind of fear, is fear of the unkown"
-H.P. Lovecraft
but thanks anyway
change of subject before i start feeling all mopey!
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nice weather we're having. . . ;~;
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"The strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the strongest kind of fear, is fear of the unkown"
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ur a nerd but thanks =]
weather's ok it just keeps raining in the afternoon O_o
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ahaha, this 'nation-wide drout' is terrible, it won't stop raining! XD
oh, oh, i just got a new kitteh-cat, by the way ^^
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"The strongest emotion of mankind is fear, and the strongest kind of fear, is fear of the unkown"
-H.P. Lovecraft
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